I spent a day with an EX-CULT MEMBER (Born into a cult w/ 44 siblings)

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I spent a day with ex-cult member Calvin Wayman to learn the truth about being born into a cult and escaping Mormon Fundamentalism. SPONSORS ▸Go to betterhelp.com/padilla to get 10% off your first month! ▸Visit joinhoney.com/PADILLA to get Honey for FREE

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Christine Wayman
Christine Wayman 2 aylar önce
I’m proud to call Calvin my son. I appreciate how well rounded he presented his life, talking about the good times and very difficult times. I’m grateful that he could see a better way to live his life and follow his heart with what he knows to be true.
Jules Elyse
Jules Elyse 4 gün önce
@Calvin Wayman thank you for sharing your story
Haleigh Ellison
Haleigh Ellison 5 gün önce
@Parker Hill exactly
Amber Howard
Amber Howard 8 gün önce
I just fell into a crying ball on the floor from this comment... You are so sweet! So supportive! And you are so validating to your son! I hope I can turn out to be half the mother you are to my kids!
ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ 17 gün önce
Gi-Hun 17 gün önce
MY HEART 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
ᵛ ᵃ ⁿ ᵗ ᵉ
ᵛ ᵃ ⁿ ᵗ ᵉ 5 saatler önce
me, as a woman, being raised in a regular mormon family, related to him in some aspects, philosophy classes also helped me to see the world with my own eyes and not only through the eyes of religion. nowadays I cannot imagine myself being trapped in the life I used to have before. just like he said, realizing that you can live a different life from the one you were always teached to preserve was a shock for me, and yeah, the process of leaving those old beliefs to new ones was kinda painful, cause at the same time I wanted to stay in my comfort zone without having any conflics with my family about the subject, I felt like I was going to deny my own self the freedom and type of life my soul craved for, even tho that choice would make me feel lonely and rejected by my relatives.
Joseph Gamboa
Joseph Gamboa 23 saatler önce
I am comparing my life growing up in an evangelical church, and there are no many differences..
Lewis Gün önce
His recorded voice kinda sound like Brendon Urie's voice who also happened to be an ex mormon. Strange...
Freya Gün önce
Ah yes polygamy, I live in Utah and you will be driving to like Moab and you will pass through these towns with like 10 houses that are all fucking gigantic you’re just looking at them like, “….eugh” There is also a town on the border of Utah and Arizona where whenever the police come the all move to the other state so that they aren’t in their jurisdiction of power….
Brookelyn Mccomas
Brookelyn Mccomas 2 gün önce
I’m confused. What’s the difference from Christianity than this ? Ima Christian. I’m confused.
Julie Jackman
Julie Jackman 2 gün önce
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints stopped polygamy in 1890. We do not believe you're perfect or you're bad. We believe no one's perfect and we all try our best and Jesus makes the final decision where we go and He's very merciful. And almost everyone who's ever lived on earth will go to heaven. Hell is not a concept in our Church. The beliefs this gentleman's religion has is completely different from the (Mormons) The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. All these things he's talking about is a wrong religion that he belonged to (FLDS). This gets confused by many that think the FLDS and LDS Church are basically the same beliefs. This could not be further from the truth. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (LDS), (Mormons) is the true Church.
Chunk Grape
Chunk Grape 2 gün önce
Thank you. So much. I am currently in the same religion with the same thoughts and processes as Calvin. It’s so helpful and emotional for me to see this person who has the same thoughts as me. I’m not crazy. I’m not alone. And this man can go out and live his life the way that I want to. Thank you for giving me that help.
Kim 3 gün önce
“Righteousness can replace love.” that cuts deep to anyone who has experienced what Calvin had
boomshacalaca13 3 gün önce
Love this format!!! So happy to see it
Scout Aaron
Scout Aaron 4 gün önce
I was born into Mormonism and right now I’m going through a faith crisis
TheUnstableWoki 4 gün önce
15:02 Roses are red, cacti is prickly, holy shit that escalated quickly 👹
TheUnstableWoki 4 gün önce
Started crying when he started crying 😭
Naomi Gary
Naomi Gary 5 gün önce
this guy is brave and smart. not a lot of people, especially not a lot of religious and/or brainwashed people, can think objectively and critically like he did.
Egelloc Daddario
Egelloc Daddario 5 gün önce
When Calvin heard about the shadow story his IQs skyrocketed.
Amber Alexandra
Amber Alexandra 6 gün önce
This was a nice change but I prefer the original format of having several different people’s perspectives on a subject, just my two cents
Julian 7 gün önce
I hate that in the most emotional moment of the video there came on an ad "you know this feeling? When you just HAVE to scratch your butthole-" I... Jesus
Triangle Nilnoc
Triangle Nilnoc 7 gün önce
I know about this family, my siblings and I actually went to school with a lot of them.
Triangle Nilnoc
Triangle Nilnoc 7 gün önce
There's a reason that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints outlawed and condemned polygamy.
Ae 7 gün önce
As an ex-muslim I never thought I would relate to his experience
Soleilune 8 gün önce
I have a direct quote from Plato's Allegory of the Cave tattooed on the inside of my arm, because of how profoundly it influenced me the first time I ever read it. It says, "How could they see anything but the shadows if they were never allowed to move their heads?" I got it to remind me to always be open-minded, since it's always possible that what I think is true is a mere shadow of reality, and I might simply not know enough to even realize it.
Amber Howard
Amber Howard 8 gün önce
So in the end: You do you Boo!
Amber Howard
Amber Howard 8 gün önce
Omg him promoting his first kids book! My heart.... I must buy!
Amber Howard
Amber Howard 7 gün önce
@Calvin Wayman follow up, I did buy one so I can not wait to get it and read it to my daughter! Thanks for being you and letting us hear your personal life experiences! I think it is helping a lot of people! It also has helped me face a few of my own childhood traumas!
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 7 gün önce
Amber Howard
Amber Howard 8 gün önce
I love these one on ones Anthony! Like so much! I love both options so doing both would honestly be such a good option as we can be introduced to something and then later you can dive deeper on that topic with a one on one.
Lazaria Yona
Lazaria Yona 9 gün önce
I'm really happy you made this episode and I loved the interviewee
KaiDestinyz 9 gün önce
Calvin is clearly intelligent. It's just unfortunate where he was born into a cult, it really changes the perspective of everything you may believe to be normal because everyone else around you do not believe in that or you for that matter. I'm sure that since young, he noticed that lots of things did not make sense to him but there was little he could do. So glad that he was able to break out.
Daniel Meyer
Daniel Meyer 9 gün önce
I love the one on one interview. Especially on subject's like this. But other topics is also fun with miltible guests.
Em Casalena
Em Casalena 9 gün önce
He's talking to anthony the way that every man talks to women lol
Em Casalena
Em Casalena 9 gün önce
I hope he heals from religious trauma in the way my ex absolutely did not
Brielle Nielson
Brielle Nielson 10 gün önce
I just recently left Brighamite Mormonism (the mainstream one) and we always just pretended the splinter groups had no standing and had left the "truth". When they teach basically the exact same thing. It's so hard to leave family and community. Plus your entire society thinks they've eternally lost you.
Lola 2940
Lola 2940 10 gün önce
yellow sleeping bag
yellow sleeping bag 10 gün önce
this was somewhat hard for me to watch because i am lds. I understand there are a lot of rumors about the religion and it being a cult is definitely one of the major ones. what he was a part of and experienced was most definitely a cult no doubt, i understand why people would think it is a cult because of cults like this stemming off of the lds religion. but there is a lot of misconception of what it's really about i guess. there are a lot of other lds members who are very stuck up and don't respect other's beliefs, which is very wrong. so those people put a bad name on what we believe in, which is, to accept everyone, love everyone, and just know, that god loves us all no matter what. with that being said, i hope everyone has a good day/night. and know that you are a valuable person.
leah lebeau
leah lebeau 11 gün önce
Sending love to Calvin!! He seems so strong, intelligent and courageous. Wish him the best of luck and thanks for sharing your story Calvin!
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
abolfazl maleki
abolfazl maleki 11 gün önce
We want jesus!!!!
Messie_Nessie_ 12 gün önce
As someone who was raised in a Christian cult I highly sympathize and relate to some of the things he talks about
it me, kym
it me, kym 12 gün önce
this guy has such a good storytelling voice. 10/10
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
Woot woot!!
Rens Corner!
Rens Corner! 12 gün önce
listens to this video looks at my childhood being raised christen Sweets because a lot of the language used is scarily similar to the stuff i was told growing up
ŁäūRÊñ 13 gün önce
I really appreciate his story and I think that what happened to him is horrible. I’m just confused, my family is part of the Mormon church (which we call the church of Latter Day Saints) and none of these things are true, like I’m just confused.
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
This is FLDS not LDS
Lizzie And hell
Lizzie And hell 13 gün önce
Arline Andrews
Arline Andrews 14 gün önce
this is so good!!!
Carlye Hooten
Carlye Hooten 14 gün önce
My grandson shared this with me. Extraordinary! Calvin's courage, and Padilla's compassion and interest. Just wonderful 😊 And Calvin's mom, her support of his personal journey. Beautiful ❣
PaulaMUñoz 99
PaulaMUñoz 99 16 gün önce
Me encanta este canal
Christian Garcia
Christian Garcia 16 gün önce
Thank you for giving people a voice Anthony
Nannette Blackwell
Nannette Blackwell 17 gün önce
I like it when you do interviews one on one with people but I also like it when you interview more than one in your videos
Morgan Webb
Morgan Webb 17 gün önce
"A mind full of conclusion has no room for expansion" is a really good quote. Thank you for sharing, Calvin
Keeley Shields-Balyk
Keeley Shields-Balyk 18 gün önce
I'm a mainstream Latter-Day Saint and it's not a cult. We actually banned polygamy in the church. Fundamentalists are an off-shoot that didn't want to follow the rules...aka..a cult.
Gala Martínez Pellicer
Gala Martínez Pellicer 18 gün önce
Que pereza de señor
Poison Krazzy
Poison Krazzy 18 gün önce
I just made the biggest "Aw" in sadness bc seeing him cry and his dad hitting his mom hit me in my crest bc as a child I thought my mommy and daddy was all lovely and then my dad hit my mom so I can feel his feelings. I never believed in "higher ups" as in gods and such mostly out of fear bc I feel like churches are just small cults so seeing anything ex cult just makes me more like "yeah nope no higher powers for me".
Meg V.
Meg V. 18 gün önce
bruh after watching these videos i’m really starting to wonder if Catholicism is a cult too
Moza G Smith
Moza G Smith 21 gün önce
To me I think you'll know if you might fall for a cult if you watched the movie Cats and didn't understand what was going on. Because the moment I watched it I immediately began seeing the red flags, the entire movie is about a cat being brainwashed into joining a cult after her lowest moment. Doesn't mean that I could never be tricked but it does mean that I'm aware of their tactics at least and know what to look out for. It scared me when I realized how few people actually caught on to the blatant tactics, including one of my favourite youtubers... the only youtuber that I saw understanding it was Matpat. If you're not even aware of what they do to manipulate people then how can you even attempt to avoid them??
Kaleb 21 gün önce
yo calvin got some nice kicks though, gotta say
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
Sleepythesage 
Sleepythesage  23 gün önce
im a mormon tho
Nichole C
Nichole C 23 gün önce
Calvin is an amazing storyteller!
HoneyRose 24 gün önce
Wow... the philosophy story is amazing. I was apart of a cult too.
Scorpius 24 gün önce
“A mind full of expansion has no room for conclusion.”
Ava O
Ava O 24 gün önce
I really really like this format, it’s incredibly interesting
Brady Frey
Brady Frey 25 gün önce
How about a 1 on 1 with a modern day Viking!
Maggie Mae
Maggie Mae 25 gün önce
omg the book title…hey that’s my name
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
Remember, Mistakes Are A-Okay ;)
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
Haha no way!!
Masuba 25 gün önce
I love this episode and I love the older ex cult member episode you've done. Please interview more people who have left cults!
Trippy Hippy 1999
Trippy Hippy 1999 26 gün önce
my dad was in a cult around the 70s~80s in BC Canada
Anh Ho
Anh Ho 26 gün önce
I have such a similar experience but never felt I could share it. Mostly because my ex-religion is not something most people in the west would have anything bad to say about, and also because my mom is a Buddhist monk which means she believes there is no way in hell I am going to have a good life not becoming a monk myself. My mom has raised me to be very Buddhist. What that means is that Buddhists are superior to the rest of the world, and that I can make choices that either lead me to hell or eventually (a billion lifetimes later) to become an actual Buddha. The very first time I questioned my beliefs was when I had an in-depth conversation with an Atheist (that wasn't my dad). He was able to explain the world to me based on what he believes just as well as how my mom would explain to me how life "actually" works. I thought: "If both of these concepts are this convincing, I wonder what else out there would also make a lot of sense. And if everyone believes in such different things, there's no way they're all going to hell because Buddhism is the superior TRUTH. Even if there was one truth, the chances that Buddhism is the one is tiny."
Rissy Stevenson
Rissy Stevenson 26 gün önce
I really like the one on one
Ruth Kennedy
Ruth Kennedy 26 gün önce
As someone who grew up in a a cult like situation (not Mormonism, I grew up in extreme Apostolic faith) people don’t understand that you grow up happy most times. I remember most parts my childhood fondly and it honestly wasn’t until I was a teenager that I noticed I was living a different life than most. I appreciate this video as I was born into one as well. Good to see someone else on the other side living life post leaving. It’s harder than anyone knows. The heartbreak and difficulty of leaving is something I cannot quite explain to others who don’t understand. Thank you for sharing!
rain Amanda
rain Amanda 26 gün önce
This sounded kinda like being a Cristian but twisted and with horrible parents also he is so brave for taking to millions of people about this.
Claire K.
Claire K. 26 gün önce
Wait. I just realized, this video is like Plato's Allegory in a way. For all I know, there could be a hippopotamus behind the camera that Calvin is fully aware of.
Claire K.
Claire K. 26 gün önce
I love these videos. There is always a personal lesson to take away from them.
Cece Fernandes
Cece Fernandes 27 gün önce
TW: Mentions of sewer slide thoughts and mentions of religion (though which is not specified) This is opening my eyes to a huge fear of mine that I've been so afraid to say aloud with my own voice: that my religion is bordering on cult. If not already a full on cult. The stakes of leaving are so steep, the teachings are ingrained in my DNA and has made me want to sewer slide on multiple occasions, I've tried to leave but my family is here. If I leave I leave my family. I love them but I don't believe/want the religion tied to them. But it's too intertwined. I'm convinced that I'll be stuck here for the rest of my life or until my family, unfortunately, dies- which ever comes forth and it really weighs on my mind thinking of the years upon years left of my own life.
thecatdragon589 29 gün önce
my dads friend in elementary and high school (middle school for americans) had a family in a cult. his family would kidnap him all the time and it was horrible. eventually he ran away from his family and my dad and their friend group helped him. he went missing one day however and they didnt see him for a while. they met each other at a volkswagen convention decades later.
bonk brazool
bonk brazool 29 gün önce
does Calvin still believe in god? or any religion?
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
bonk brazool
bonk brazool 29 gün önce
a very observant and intelligent mind.
LoraLulu Aylar önce
This guy is SO awesome, he needs to be on more!!!
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman 10 gün önce
DriftyTheKid Aylar önce
I really appreciate that Anthony assured him he didnt need to talk about anything too difficult. many interviewers chase the story regardless of peoples feelings and seeing Anthony display that this was a safe place was heartwarming.
KitakuEigo Aylar önce
Jehovah's Witnesses are a nasty doomsday cult.🤮🤢Run🏃‍♂️
Megs301 Aylar önce
Like right now in the world shocking
{KC} Aylar önce
I'm never going to say "I could never find myself in a cult" seeing as I am in one currently. 3 years and counting till I can leave :/
Tessa Widowski
Tessa Widowski Aylar önce
I am a Mormon NOT a Mormon fundamentalist. Cults suck one because of all the people they suck in and mess up their lives, and two because there are cults that branched off of “Mormonism” and it increases the amount of people that think that my religion is a cult. It is just as much of a religion as Catholicism. My standards aren’t the same as that cults. It just sucks bc so many people could see me as a cult member even though I’m not.
Kris Aylar önce
you see this.. F- FOR REAL HAVE A GREAT DAY
HotTamali8 Aylar önce
Joseph Smith was only polygamist because a large group of men in their community died because of an illness. So to help their community whatever men that were still alive after the illness. Took on the other wives and they were polygamist but it was only supposed to be for a short-term. It was never supposed to be a permanent aspect of the Mormon religion. That's why there is now two different Mormon religions there's the Church of latter-day saints and then there's the polygamist Mormons.
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman Aylar önce
So Joseph Smith only married widows?
Orpheus and Eurydice
Orpheus and Eurydice Aylar önce
Plato always has the best stories and theories
Audra Holzer
Audra Holzer Aylar önce
I was very pleasantly surprised that he didn’t completely bash religion. It is very saddening when people cannot comprehend another persons perspective. It is important to look outside the box and consider where another person is coming from.
World According to TiJ
World According to TiJ Aylar önce
"it's not always bad, and that's what covers up the shit" I felt this in my soul. Thanks mom for all you've done. But also, fuck you for everything you've done.
Kim Debs
Kim Debs Aylar önce
I love this one on one to explore the subject matter deeper. I learned way more and it was more interesting.
Gamer Crinkly
Gamer Crinkly Aylar önce
Was the siblings actually related but if soo I didn’t think you could get that many siblings
Trisha Lenon
Trisha Lenon Aylar önce
Calvin is one of the most well spoken, intelligent people I have listened to. Anthony, thank you for bringing Calvin’s story to your channel and for creating a beautiful safe space for these stories.
Calvin Wayman
Calvin Wayman Aylar önce
Austin Clemons
Austin Clemons Aylar önce
Nohomo... Anthony is sooo beautiful... I'd love to cuddle w him:
Da gamer
Da gamer Aylar önce
His from far cry 5
Zoe Whybrew
Zoe Whybrew Aylar önce
I can just imagine the cliques hanging out at lunch like: "hey guys look at the looser siblings! haha ha!"
Jem Lev
Jem Lev Aylar önce
Really interesting chat. Ty.
Melann Purl
Melann Purl Aylar önce
I love both video formats equally. Its nice having the group topics but the one on one are great too. Also wanted to say I really love your shirt :)
Hjonk Am Goose
Hjonk Am Goose Aylar önce
So someone with an American flag is stuck in their own bubble and could be in a cult? Ridiculous.
Hjonk Am Goose
Hjonk Am Goose Aylar önce
When he defined a cult I was like yep. That is totally the left at least towards me.
Alexis Sampson
Alexis Sampson Aylar önce
Calvin was a really good speaker and storyteller. Very interesting video :)
No One
No One Aylar önce
I don't really see a problem with polygamy as long as everyone is happy and healthy idk
Haven Leaf
Haven Leaf Aylar önce
Not even really related but that "If Jesus had a gun he would still be alive today" sticker is the dumbest thing I've ever seen in my entire life and I don't know what to do with myself now that I know this is a thing someone would actually say.
Detailed Gacha
Detailed Gacha Aylar önce
THIS is why people think mormons are cultists XD. Its like a creepy uncle I didn't know I had.
SpookyBur Aylar önce
I love both formats of videos. I enjoy the three simultaneous interviews when you introduce a topic. Then when I understand the topic and the way the three guests interpret it I crave more in-depth coverage. Its especially true with interesting guests. I wish you had a whole series of these. I want to know everyones life stories.
TheMarkyangelo Aylar önce
I grew up in a cult as well. A different one. But still a cult. It is absolutely freeing to get out. I'm glad he got out too.
Jessica Cloney
Jessica Cloney Aylar önce
There are two types of people in the world: those who reference the cave allegory, and those who reference the red pill.
Kot z Cheshire
Kot z Cheshire Aylar önce
I don't know about you guys, but whenever someone cries, I have a strong desire to hug them. So harsh, poor Calvin...
Whiteboard Anesthesia
Whiteboard Anesthesia Aylar önce
@23:29 "Another rule of cults: you only can see it from the outside, so how do you know you're not inside one?" That's sooooo profound on so many levels, not just exclusive to cults. Reminded me of the movie Inception! But also the Plato story he shared from the first half lol.
Rabbit Queen
Rabbit Queen Aylar önce
This episode was so good!
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