'I'm sorry Nikolas': Parkland witness apologizes directly to Nikolas Cruz during testimony

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Carolyn Deakins, a former friend of Parkland shooter Nikolas Cruz's biological mother, testified during the 23-year-old's sentencing for killing 17 people at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in South Florida. Deakins testified about doing drugs with Cruz's mother, Brenda Woodard, and the time when Woodard told her she was pregnant with Cruz. Deakins said Woodard had always planned to give the baby up for adoption. After describing how Woodard didn't want the baby, Deakins apologized to Cruz, saying "I'm sorry Nikolas but that's just the way it was."
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@Jacqie85 Yıl önce
Imagine seeing this woman in the grocery store…would you ever think she lived the life she did? This is just another example of why we need to treat people with kindness and empathy. It’s about a damn miracle she’s still here. This is just wild. It’s extremely sad that this kid had the start to life that he did, but it absolutely does not excuse his actions. So much devastation, it’s really unbearable. Props to this woman for speaking so openly and mostly for defeating her demons and now working to help others.
@ashleymcmeakin8590 Yıl önce
Very well said!
@bellanova5491 Yıl önce
@maandren Yıl önce
@@jbladen11 So true... When you look at my profile picture, do I look like someone who did meth for 30 years and heroin for 10? I've been clean for 4 years now.
@delq2101 Yıl önce
So true..
@cassiecasiano2500 Yıl önce
I see it as an explanation not an excuse
@elainew2230 Yıl önce
Brave, strong woman. She's admitting to past mistakes, and owning it in court on television for everyone to see. She's an example that people can change. She's doing this because she wants to help with her honesty.
@JohnSmith-ct5jd Yıl önce
She also has empathy. She even apologized to Cruz for having to say that his biological mother did not want him. She is really a good person.
@arab1705 Yıl önce
Martin Bryant not so much lol nobody gives a f about him lol
@warrax111 Yıl önce
@@arab1705 it doesn't look like that. they giving him attention, he wanted.
@stevenreichertart Yıl önce
“Nikolas, I’m sorry but that’s how it was.” It’s stunning to see any witness turn and address a defendant. Everyone suffered from the day this child was conceived. What a sad situation for the victims and him. Everyone.
@kevinocean523 Yıl önce
Where's the timestamp where she stated that?
@stevenreichertart Yıl önce
@@kevinocean523 18:58 is the question from the attorney, and her response soon after where she turned to the defendant.
@bridgettroberts2386 Yıl önce
Not only did this witness apologize, but she winked at him twice as she approached the witness box.
@AnnabelleCharrier Yıl önce
@@bridgettroberts2386 I saw the wink too! Some - perhaps most people - would find that very offensive but I thought it was very sweet. I remember being called up for jury duty in a murder trial. Everyone was glowering at the defendant but I thought, 'Innocent until proven guilty and all that - he's probably not getting many smiles at this point' so I smiled at him. Needless to say, I was disqualified. Ironically, when the facts of the case came out and I found out he'd been found not guilty I was disappointed. If I'd stayed on the jury, I'd have voted 'guilty'. Excuse the segue way.
@philipbay1548 Yıl önce
@@AnnabelleCharrier glad you were excused from the jury then.
@AnnaRNC Yıl önce
I cannot imagine what Brenda’s children went through. The mother was so lost in drugs and hurted her kids minds and souls so badly. Her oldest daughter testimony was heart breaking. It does not justify the horrible crime Nikolas commited but it shows what a horrific upbringing can do to a child’s mind.
@carlchameleon9847 Yıl önce
Not even the upbringing so much as the drug and alchohol abuse while he was still in the womb. That'll seriously mess someone up.
@konczita82 Yıl önce
What about Brenda?! Do you know what she has been through as a child?!
@DevilsKnyte Yıl önce
Absolutely. I mean obviously it doesn’t excuse what he had done but one way or the other this kid was doomed from the start. His mother is almost just as much to blame at that point. Who knows how much the drugs and alcohol effected him and his brain to where this all would have been avoided had his development in the womb had not been effected by those things.
@reg8297 Yıl önce
@@konczita82 would love to know answer to that
@racheldavielee9919 Yıl önce
There is also such a thing as foetal alcohol syndrome.
@antoinetteespach5831 Yıl önce
What a honest witness, so glad she straighted out her life and talk so openly about it. Good for you lady.
@Face_Reality Yıl önce
@goose7574 Yıl önce
@JohnSmith-ct5jd Yıl önce
I really respected her more than that prosecuting attorney. Reminded me of Thomas Binger, of the Kyle Rittenhouse trial. That prosecutor was also a jerk.
@scooterfoust4361 Yıl önce
@@JohnSmith-ct5jd It's his job to try to discredit or minimize the testimony of the defense's witnesses. The defense does the same thing with State's witnesses.
@scooterfoust4361 Yıl önce
But yes, she had quite a compelling story to tell. I'm glad she straightened out her life and got away from drugs and alcohol.
@Bethany030303 Yıl önce
This lady seems more trustworthy and in touch with reality than most people I know who have never been addicts and think they know everything about life.
@a.ros12 Yıl önce
@tommybadnfnyn282 Yıl önce
What’s that supposed to mean exactly
@kingayy9267 Yıl önce
Addiction doesn't turn its victims into unintelligent, inherently bad people. Addicts come from all walks of life. It shouldn't be surprising that she's not an evil monster or something, although I do understand the spirit of your comment.
@BlessedTruly2014 Yıl önce
Most non addicts or people that have never dealt with mental health issues in general aren't as understanding as people that have struggled.
@Bethany030303 Yıl önce
@@BlessedTruly2014 I totally agree. Unfortunately, the addicts I know very well are very childlike, immature and self centered in their thinking. I read through Alanon that they sometimes stay mentally the age that they began their addiction. But then again, my personal examples are not recovered.
@michelea2326 Yıl önce
Honestly this woman seems to have a good heart. She's been through a lot and just wants to help people. It takes a lot to sit in the witness box and talk so openly about a shady past.
@debikaip3699 Yıl önce
I had the exact same thoughts. Then to apologize to Nicholas was beyond words, I can’t imagine what Nicholas was thinking , he had lost both moms at this point. This women has a good heart.
@bridgetmcarthur155 Yıl önce
I agree 100%! I am glad she got clean and she is back with her family.
@BoilsonA Yıl önce
She's a good person.
@heathertzogas7557 Yıl önce
I think the stress of this (and how some people are representing her) has the potential of triggering a relapse. Here's hoping she comes through all right.
@michelea2326 Yıl önce
@@heathertzogas7557 she seems like a tough cookie 😊🍪
@lynnc8188 Yıl önce
As a recovering addict, almost 20 years clean, I understand her being confused about some of the things that happened so long ago. In my case I was so ashamed of myself for the ppl I hurt that I couldn’t live with myself. I blocked a lot of those years because if I hadn’t I was afraid the depression would drive me back to the drugs. She is courageous and being as honest as she can. This must be so hard for her. Thank God she got and stayed sober. It’s extremely hard to do. God bless her.
@lynnc8188 Yıl önce
@2eggs Over easy thank you ❤️
@heatherhughes2955 Yıl önce
Same here Lynn. Even after 22 years sober there are still many things I don’t remember. My son is 30 now and it’s hard living with all the things I missed when he was younger. He was what kept me going and kept me from going off the deep end. Life isn’t always easy even after all this time, but it’s sure better than any day when I was using. I keep praying for those that are still out there struggling with addiction because it truly is hell on earth.
@lynnc8188 Yıl önce
@@heatherhughes2955 🙏 that’s great. Congratulations 🎈
@JohnSmith-ct5jd Yıl önce
I agree. I was really getting annoyed with that prosecutor for picking at her the way he did. Jerk.
@yanalicious87 Yıl önce
@amberbartlett5067 Yıl önce
She needs to write an autobiography! I believe so many people would read it , some may relate and it could help others see that recovery can be possible . Her part of recovery is admitting her faults, apologizing and being so raw is a huge step in this process of recovery! I feel being so open and vulnerable in the public eye is so brave yet difficult as their will always be judgement , especially opening up on the stand , this takes tremendous strength & courage. I’m humbled by her and beyond proud of this women!
@amymcneil3745 Yıl önce
I love this lady
@Blast2224 Yıl önce
Read the book a mother wrote about the mother of Adam Lanza. If you don’t all remember, he did the Sandy Hook shootings that took an entire room of children along with the teacher and some of the faculty.
@basilintheforest5201 Yıl önce
I probably would. I am a ex addict and any person older and a longer addict than I ever was, they were people I remember even in the struggles we were all dealing with.
@shipaskof8371 Yıl önce
Her story is not unusual. Thousands lik her. Thousands dead in jail murdered or dead by suicide r overdose.
@animatedobject3188 Yıl önce
Roman didn't consent to existence.
@veronicaknight9229 Yıl önce
You know you have forgiven yourself for your past when you can talk about it so open and honestly to the world and not be concerned about judgement. She has such a story to tell and it needs to be heard. I hope someone offers her a book deal. Such an amazing soul
@arrashealing Yıl önce
Absolutely, well said
@joeshmoe2746 4 aylar önce
Lol yall are crazy. This women is just as bad as Brenda but got a year sentence and got scared straight. Imagine if they got back to that house and smoked them 5 rocks up and who knows what happens from there. Why are yall d riding her lolllll
@rickjames8961 Yıl önce
Before this woman started telling her story, I would never assumed she spent the 80s and 90s living that kinda of life. She looks more innocent than my grandmother who never drank, never took drugs. She didn't even smoke cigarettes. Carolyn is a good example of why it's not to late, that you can change what the world thinks about you. You don't have to stay and die as the addict you may think you are in the world eyes. It's never to late to turn your life around, to become a respectful member of society. Be the change you want to see in the world.
@alecjordan6100 Yıl önce
Agreed. I thought she was just some nice old lady neighbor of Cruz’s family at first.
@moparbabe72 Yıl önce
She has confronted her past and doesn’t let it define her anymore. It’s the key to getting clean, forgiving herself. That’s part of why so many addicts are addicts, they hate who they’ve become, on top of whatever led them to that lifestyle in the first place. They’re hiding from it. It’s why she’s so honest, if you start to hide from it, you’re going to end up right back where you were.
@lamelinna Yıl önce
i didnt read the description of the video and thought she was a teacher
@vice2versa Yıl önce
@@lamelinna I thought she was Nikolas Cruz mother at first.
@LEARNING-67 Yıl önce
Wtf is this????
@dcc-randomstorieswithmel7424 Yıl önce
Nikolas hardly raises his head but here you see him actually forget himself and raises his head throughout to listen to her talk about his mother. It just shows the importance of parenthood,that even a monster can still feel something for his birth mum. Parents please love your kids and if you know you won't be a good one,be responsible and not have any. Edit:Im glad my comment thread has turned into a serious conversation about morality and gun laws. People (THOSE)Who show empathy towards Nick are not welcomed here though.
Not a monster sombody who was tired of living just chose the worst way to end hes I hope he find GOD
@lorriedeedamas9260 Yıl önce
@@KINGRIZZO Him finding GOD won’t bring back the innocent lives he so selfishly and heinously stole
@@lorriedeedamas9260 couldn’t agree no more than u agree on but he’s alive god forgave a murderer b4 he have a chance to repent
@moparbabe72 Yıl önce
100% and you can have parents but that doesn’t mean they’re good parents. The importance of people and their words…. And how powerful words and the way you treat and raise people is.
@whiskybooze Yıl önce
I don't think people realize she was apologizing for being so forthcoming and honest about his mother not wanting him. She wasn't condoning his actions. She was apologizing for the lifestyle his biological mother and her lived.
@BenjiFriedman Yıl önce
@crankfuknu99 Yıl önce
@@BenjiFriedman now he's focused
@Ktown413 Yıl önce
That’s what I thought as well
@alya3aloush Yıl önce
@@BenjiFriedman thanks❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤
@ElenaChristinne Yıl önce
This testimony is eye-opening and heartbreaking, how drugs can destroy a person's life, the effects on their families and the community. It's painful because some don't even seek help like she says. How could we as a society prevent this from happening again? But this doesn't change the fact of what he did and the pain he's caused.
@WRMRanch Yıl önce
no, nothing will ever change what he did but it certainly makes it clearer
@SundayBlues555 Yıl önce
@@WRMRanch Yes! 100% agree! Very true
@drawincode1800 Yıl önce
@@WRMRanch Once we're all dead and that, no-one will remember or even care.
@1timeuser0904 Yıl önce
Change the laws on drugs, stop the war on drugs. Create laws that decriminalize drugs. I understand people are afraid of that but please don’t be confused with making it legal. Decriminalization means that a once-banned drug is still prohibited by law, but the legal system will no longer prosecute or criminalize a person for carrying under a certain amount. The USA has to also have socialized medical treatments for rehab centers, Ibogaine clinics be an option, and other treatments available. The reality is addicts are medicating themselves to treat a mental illness, or was injured and got hooked on pain meds either way the drug war is a war on sick people nothing more.
@Kellyyy44 Yıl önce
Sadly they have to want the help :( otherwise they’ll just take everyone down with them
@rieniekramer1912 Yıl önce
This lady needs to write a book about her experience and recovery ... So honest and forthright.. Bless you
@chanelwaldorf9728 Yıl önce
I was just thinking the same thing, especially since she’s got such a jovial personality and the ability to tell a good story.
@MrDumbass420 Yıl önce
Literally a billion others with the same exact story. Drugs, abuse, gut wrenching heart ache. It's a life many of us live. No books need written. Just a little respect givin so people don't go BACK to the crazy.
@Thatzulugirl05 Yıl önce
I wanna see it play out on a big screen ! She would totally be able to help a lot of people and use the money she makes to the cause she’s already working on with the women she helps 🙏🏾💪🏾
@PrincessPoohs Yıl önce
@@MrDumbass420 a life lived doesn’t have to be spectacularly unique for it to be a story worth being told. Perhaps in her case BECAUSE so many people have and will continue to walk her same path. Every person is a little universe unto themselves, and when they’re gone, it’s like a whole sky blinking out. Her life is worth knowing about- and she IS in the unique position of having gone through something that eventually takes the life of most people it touches, with the clarity of being on the other side of it never to be reached. She’s reached it. It’s a valuable perspective.
@adamscott1138 Yıl önce
Agree..it could help a lot people 👌🏾
@christinakritch478 Yıl önce
Mad respect for this lady! I've known so many who go through their entire lives without being able to stay clean and sober. My adoptive Mama has just made 25 years clean and sober after leaving my Dad. My Dad unfortunately is almost 70 and is still a hard-core user. I've watched my Mom overcome things most do not and she is my true life hero. This woman is giving back to society. Mad props!
@ash.marie.8719 Yıl önce
As someone who has a history of alcohol abuse, I admire this woman so much. She came to the stand and was raw and honest. It's not always easy being transparent with others about your old ways as an alcoholic and/or addict.
@debbieangel9376 Yıl önce
@ash.marie.87 True, especially if you trying to forget
@vice2versa Yıl önce
@TheKimberlydw I hated the taste of alcohol until I got used to it. its still nasty but not as repulsive as it once was to me
@ash.marie.8719 Yıl önce
@TheKimberlydw I'm sorry to hear that she never did seek out the help that she so desperately needs. My heart breaks for you. Family members go through so much suffering seeing a loved one self destruct. It isn't fair for the family at all.
@ash.marie.8719 Yıl önce
@@debbieangel9376 You want to try and forget it, but sobriety means coming clean with everything & sharing your testimony. 😊
@_wickedlyqueer Yıl önce
I relate so much to her in terms of her life as an addict. She’s a miracle, every recovering addict is a miracle. Never thought I’d get out of that life alive. Good for her ❤️
@lifeofatruckerswife Yıl önce
I know I'm a stranger on the internet...but I want you to know that I am so proud of you!!! Keep a-pushing, one day at a time💙💙
@_wickedlyqueer Yıl önce
@@lifeofatruckerswife believe it or not, it actually means alot more coming from a stranger. Thank you so much for this ❤️
@KT06 Yıl önce
Queen Dee congrats on your sobriety! I often think back and wonder how I made it out too! I was in active addiction 15 yrs and sober for 2 yrs and 5 months now
@elizagrogan9454 Yıl önce
@@KT06 Congratulations
@_wickedlyqueer Yıl önce
@@KT06 sister, that’s amazing. I’m really proud of you! ❤️ I got 4 years myself, and I know now hard that 2 year mark is for a lot of addicts, including myself. It’s huge you have made it as far as you have. So much love & respect ❤️
@Nova-lh7yf Yıl önce
This lady is so pure in her answers. She tells the absolute truth. And she even had the decency to apologize to Nicholas about his mother. I am so impressed with her cleaning up her life and do good to others. May God bless her.
@whirlibug Yıl önce
She is very likeable. Her honesty is greatly appreciated. She should be proud of how far she has come. She is a testament to the reality that people can change, if they want to.
@smellycat264 Yıl önce
Amen 🙏 I
@helives2209 Yıl önce
Definitely. She is still alive!!
@ashlee0039 Yıl önce
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@Robotchickjenn Yıl önce
Her sobriety has everything to do with her admitting her truth for everyone to see. She has done the steps. That is a really beautiful thing good for her!!
@damotheman4196 Yıl önce
100% agreed. I'm glad to see so many supportive comments here, can't be easy for her to be reliving her past for the world to see. Have to say I thought she did really well. She didn't ask to be there, but fulfilled her duty.
@smellycat264 Yıl önce
@Jettypilelegs Yıl önce
Odaat ♥️ 18 years here.
@ji1072 Yıl önce
I’m a RN who has worked iN addiction nursing for 25+ yrsPeople who battle addiction to anything have such a struggle and they need all our support. I see all their pain while they are in the Detox unit. It breaks my heart. So many times people say to me why do I work with addicts. I get so upset by this. They need me just as much as any patient. I’m so happy this lady is doing this l and helping others.
@RK-su4hs Yıl önce
@maddimartinez7894 Yıl önce
It is so difficult to escape an addiction and lifecycle like that. I hope that she lives out the rest of her life in peace, feeling fulfilled by her work supporting others like her. It’s truly moving to hear her story.
@oliviag2494 Yıl önce
@andeechristian9436 Yıl önce
Praise Jesus for this testimony and her courage!! I am a domestic violence survivor, 23 years off drugs and 6 years sober. Many people stigmatized me and refused to help me, but ONE elderly woman did help me, and I now I can help others--despite now being a wheelchair user. It's easy to judge others, it's hard to help
@johnnabaker3624 Yıl önce
Need to talk
@zuzannasymonowicz1752 Yıl önce
@user-tv6tu1hp6t Yıl önce
I’m 13 years clean from the same drugs as her. I came so close to going down the same path she did but thankfully cleaned up before it was too late. I can’t even bear to think about that time in my life so I know how incredibly difficult this must be for her to talk about publicly.
@along58 Yıl önce
Hey! I just want you to know I’m proud of you! You’re amazingly strong and what you have done takes so much bravery ❤
@user-tv6tu1hp6t Yıl önce
@@along58 Thank you ❤️
@carmenleal1711 Yıl önce
🎉my story as well,and I’m so very glad that I had a change of heart and mind do not continue down that road. I’ll be 62 years next month and I am enjoying my grandkids so much and, as well as I enjoy being with my beautiful dog that I love so dearly, that’s alcohol people can change. One of these great quotes” you have to clear the past, before you see the present, to get to the future”!🎉I’m so proud of US 😉 BLESS YOU MY DEAR ALWAYS GIVING THANKS TO GOD THAT MADE US AND GAVE US OUR BEAUTIFUL SIGHT TO SEE, OUR MOUTH AND TASTE BUDS TO TASTE ALLLLL THESE MARVELOUS FOODS ECT…. OUR EARS TO HEAR THE BEAUTIFUL WORDS IN A SMALL SERMON,OR SIMPLY HEAR GODS WORDS ON YOUR EARPHONES 😅TO HEAR BEAUTIFUL MUSIC..I CAN JUST GO ON..AND ON….Thank you for sharing CONTINUE TO KEEP YOUR HEART AND EYES ON THE RIGHT AND LIGHT PATH…SENDING YOU AND ALL THAT ARE STILL SUFFERING OUT THERE STRONG AND LOVING PRAYERS…🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺👼👼👼👼👼👼🙌🙌🙌🙌🙌❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️👍👍👍👍👍👍👍😉😉👏👏👏👏
@JennyJeong425 Yıl önce
I don't know who you are, but I am very proud of you. That takes an incredible amount of strength. I wish you nothing but the best.
@EDM_2905 Yıl önce
She's well spoken. We can't change our past but we sure can change our future with positive thinking, attitude and a will to change.
@McBryce0 Yıl önce
Yep. All we can do is learn and move on, life goes on make it count! 😀
@EDM_2905 Yıl önce
@@McBryce0 Yup..Learn and move on..Without a doubt!
@mobius4897 Yıl önce
It's a lot more than a positive attitude or will. Kind of a naive view. It's a lot of really hard work and usually it takes something so awful happening that you don't have a choice anymore. And sometimes it's nothing because the life you lived is so horrible and without love and full of trauma your brain is disabled from it. Jesus gets people sober sometimes. A lot of times it's getting so sick you're in the hospital or going to prison. It's not a bad mindset that gets people so low. Life is fkn hard for some people.
@EDM_2905 Yıl önce
@@mobius4897 Hard work and dedication comes from positive thinking, attitude and a will to change. Thanks.
@slackjaw2643 Yıl önce
Why wouldn’t she be well spoken. She’s still human she’s not garbage
@user-pt1cz4ot1e Yıl önce
She’s so lovely. I hope she knows how many people are proud of her. I’m glad she beat addiction.
@annaadams3144 Yıl önce
🙌🏾🙌🏾EXACTLYYYYY.. yes 👏🏾 yesss !!! May she be blessed 😇 beyond her years !!! She should be proud of herself & sobriety 🙌🏾💕
@hotelalphawhiskeykilogrunt7925 Yıl önce
I would love for her to do a full podcast just about her life she’s such a good story teller and her memory is so good she even takes you back to the moment the way she speaks
@kingayy9267 Yıl önce
I hope she reads these comments one day and sees how positive people are speaking about her and her honesty.
@joemcmurtrey1 Yıl önce
I wish she could read all of these comments. So much love for her, and she deserves it all. ❤️
@jimbrown8818 Yıl önce
I am so grateful that I have never had to deal with this sort of thing in my life. I have great empathy for this lady and the life she has battled to overcome. I wish her peace and happiness in the days ahead.
@PrincessPoohs Yıl önce
This is such a kind and thoughtful comment. Many who haven’t been touched by addiction in their own lives can often be judgmental about the people who have, especially to the level that she was involved in drugs and prostitution. It’s easy for *me* to empathize with her because I’ve been there (for the addiction part)- I really appreciate seeing the empathy from someone who hasn’t 💜
@collydub1987 Yıl önce
@@PrincessPoohs plenty of us out here think the same way as Jim. I've never touched drugs and barely drink, but I always feel terrible for people with addiction issues. Life is hard and it's tough that a few bad choices can destroy large parts of a life.
@AnnaRNC Yıl önce
I cannot imagine what Brenda’s children went through. The mother was so lost in drugs and hurted her kids minds and souls so badly. Her oldest daughter testimony was heart breaking. The consequences of these types of upbringing are not surprising.
@leafkefn3774 Yıl önce
Worst part is, the daughter of branda the half sister of nikolas got life in prison:(
@lovesomeone7285 Yıl önce
This must have been a very difficult day for her. I hope she gets back home to her family and knows she's a survivor. It may have been who she was, but not who she is today or tomorrow.
@robmullin1128 Yıl önce
We see this “well put together” older woman on the stand and would never assume the past she has. She has one powerful story!
@hlookie Yıl önce
This woman has been to Hell and back and is now voluntarily helping other women get out of a terrible situation. What an amazing thing that she came out on top.
@shidehhafezi6826 Yıl önce
If a former drug user can stay off of drugs for a long time, and they are willing to help others, rehab center hire them as a role mother for those who would like to quit.
@candilease938 Yıl önce
Those are the best people to help those struggling with addiction etc…..if they’ve been there and done it then they’re truly the best to help!
@crazydiamond4565 Yıl önce
She is still ticking bad so is she really sober?
@timbredan3476 Yıl önce
@@shidehhafezi6826 amen!
@timbredan3476 Yıl önce
@@crazydiamond4565 its not easy. She is clearly trying, it seems
@sallymcmurray949 Yıl önce
People have no idea how parents like Brenda can really screw a child up. It's hard for those who have not been there and who pass all this judgment, but you cannot believe what those kids have been through.
@konczita82 Yıl önce
What about Brenda?! Do you know what she has been through as a child?! Maybe her parents screw her up? And her parents were screwed by their parents 😵‍💫So no one is actually quilty😵‍💫
@TheCureTarot Yıl önce
@@konczita82 you can't say noone is actually guilty, yes they were victims, but many victim get out of the victim mentality, and don't commit crime, I've known abused children who grew up to be good citizens.
@elizabethnovotny109 Yıl önce
@@TheCureTarot Me too!!!
@jhsemoxitha3821 Yıl önce
@@konczita82 It's a cycle
@SwimKam Yıl önce
This person has been through so much pain. My heart reaches out to hers. Much respect to her.
@shannonventura8435 Yıl önce
Very brave of this woman to talk about the lowest parts of her life in an open court. I feel for her, and I’m so glad to see that she turned her life around.
@taiwilson4098 Yıl önce
Right! Because the whole world is watching
@arizonaranger527 Yıl önce
She DOES not need to apologize to anyone , she’s awesome and I hope people tell her that.
@mikefrost5481 Yıl önce
Doesn't need to at all ! She has nothing to be sorry for... But, you can tell she IS sorry, but, because of someone else's actions.
@jojobee42 Yıl önce
Agreed! I hope she reads these comments and sees how nicely people talk about her.
@glee_again2594 Yıl önce
It helps her feel better to say it. Probably wishes she could have helped make things different:
@BiteTheDustRequiem Yıl önce
She's an enabler.
@joemcmurtrey1 Yıl önce
Listening to her testimony, it was heartbreaking, yet uplifting. What a truly amazing woman, to live that life, make it out and now to give back. Such a big heart, such a loving soul. To relive it in front of the world, that to me was unbearable. My eyes were full of tears for her pain and for the love she has for others.
@catherineseiler7407 Yıl önce
She’s very honest, it’s great she has her life together, must have been a terrible life, this is what happens to unwanted children
@roxannemoser Yıl önce
Not all. I was unwanted. And even had to STAY with a mother that didn't want me. She wouldn't feed me. I weighed 45 pounds at 10 years old. 89 pounds at 18. She started leaving me home alone at age 4. She took my child support money and went on vacations without me. College time came and there was nothing for me for college. Im still in therapy over my childhood. I left out the worst parts. Never in my life did I even want to kill her, much less anybody else.
@Coco21222 Yıl önce
This is not what happens to unwanted children. I totally disagree. Not to mention he wasn't raised by his biological mom. He was adopted by a successful family who wanted him. So..
@marksmith4892 Yıl önce
@@roxannemoser you know one of the most disappointing parts of life is that most people who are well-to-do will not take help or assistance because they don't want the liability of being obligated to reciprocate to anybody else and that is sad but what is even more sad is that the people like you who deserve all the help to make what was done to you right are neglected because nobody from the affluent side of the tracks wants to venture into the impoverished side because they have to risk life & limb. Also the wealthy tend to not associate with the not wealthy because they will be obligated to give all they have to the poor. So that leaves giving to charity but it's so impersonal, like throwing money into the ether and not knowing who it benefited or how. But that is SO wrong, a burning injustice, that someone like you endures/endured alone. You should be integrated with society who support you and lift you up and go after the ones who wronged you so egregiously.
@jackking9271 Yıl önce
I’m unwanted, alone, isolated and multiple mental disorders yet ive never thought of even harming a single person
@erichk1674 Yıl önce
She’s lucky to be alive . People need to hear stories like hers to learn the realities of life . My heart goes out to her .
@electronicfarts5105 Yıl önce
She is walking proof that it's never too late to redeem yourself and become a better person.
@Rubythereaper Yıl önce
I would listen to this woman speak for hours. I would love to hear more of her story, so much strength in her sharing all of this. I am so mf proud of this lady! She is a badass! Straight up so inspiring and in my opinion it’s not Bc she left certain behaviors and careers behind it’s Bc SHE OWNS IT ALL!
@PeerKristijan Yıl önce
I would want to listen to her too!
@oFwaih Yıl önce
Owning it all is one of the main parts of her recovery. Because of her recovery, living and working the Steps and God's grace, she able to live in truth. Bless her 100x.
@st_adam9058 Yıl önce
What a beautiful soul. This woman’s resolve is something that you do not see in very many people. Very inspiring story. Glad she found a better life, she deserves it.
@MissMiriamka Yıl önce
This lady, she is putting herself through this, re-living the parts of her life she has clearly battled to come to terms with ever since they happened and she does it just to see if it could get a fuller picture. it won’t change anything about the terrible events but god bless her for putting herself out there. What a special soul.
@christinehuston7714 Yıl önce
Happy for her that she is sober! Had to be hard to relive the lowest moments of her life… I know that there will be many haters….but I do respect her for speaking the truth. So many will judge her, even after 25 years of sobriety. She doesn’t condone the actions of the school shooter at all….she is just here to tell the truth of what was happening at that time. I admire the heck out of her for speaking the truth about what she recounts, and I absolutely believe her. She never once tries to sugar coat her past. I admire her honesty completely!
@lynnc8188 Yıl önce
You are so correct. I was addicted to crack cocaine. I’m 16 years sober, thank God. There’s ppl who still consider me to be a “dopehead”. Those are the ppl who will make you relapse if you let them. I am lucky enough to have a close relationship with God and still fight the shame and depression. I pray a lot 🙏
@mpeters220 Yıl önce
I judge her as having tremendous courage and remarkable candor.
@susanbajjada2960 Yıl önce
@@lynnc8188 "That is what some of you WERE" 1 Cor 6:11 Don't let anyone shame you back into addiction. Eph 4:22-24🙏
@lynnc8188 Yıl önce
@@susanbajjada2960 People might think I am crazy but to me the crack was like being possessed by a demon. The good Lord has gotten rid of him for me. I prayed and prayed and I don’t think I have even had a slight craving for probably 10 years. God is good. Thanks for your lovely comment.
@tinamcveigh4205 Yıl önce
@@lynnc8188 Hey Lynn -- YOU MATTER!!! YOU are WORTHY and DESERVE a peaceful and contented life!! I wish for you ALL that you want to BE in your life.
@romananovackova2691 Yıl önce
This woman had been thru so much and she is so strong to be able to talk about it ❤️
@TheErika711 Yıl önce
It's all such a tragedy - it's heart wrenching to know that Nikolas was going to be brought into a life of absolute hell. I'm very impressed with this witness she was very well versed for her background and proud that she cleaned up her life.
@pinkysteen1121 Yıl önce
I love this woman... She put it all out there. So honest. She seen and did it all !! Has nothing to lose. No drama. She is putting it all out there. She must be so torn.
@Virginnia Yıl önce
I do too. She was brave to be a witness in a trial that went viral.
@ingrid_inthesky Yıl önce
She probably had nothing to lose back then but certainly does now, but I get what you're saying.
@abcc9762 Yıl önce
What a strong woman. To go through what she went through and made changes to become a better person. Amazing. I know that there are many others like her.
@hacksawjimthuggin5750 Yıl önce
I admire this woman. I can't even imagine how much courage it takes to talk about this so honestly on this large of a stage,especially when she's not even the one on trial. Respect.
@ShoeChic5441 Yıl önce
God Bless her. Her struggle did not defeat her. I love this woman.
@getshorty7549 Yıl önce
Me too ;)
@ginnyleedays Yıl önce
This lady has a testimony to share. So touching to see where she came from to today. God bless this lady
I forgot about the apology time mark. And just was so interested in her life with his mom and herself. The stuff they went through, rough life, drugs and getting into the bad. I enjoyed listening to her story. Very well spoken and eye opening. People can change. God bless her.
@dcc-randomstorieswithmel7424 Yıl önce
Me too
@gonnadanceagain Yıl önce
I L-O-V-E this woman's honesty about her past. She is a woman to look up to because she has truly been there❣️
@caspa2909 Yıl önce
She's not honest. She may be trying to be. However she would have told that many lies in the past she doesn't know what's real and what's not. They convince themself a lie is the truth.
@hothotheat3000 Yıl önce
There isn’t a person alive who wouldn’t be hurt to hear that their mother never wanted them.
@johnshepard8556 Yıl önce
Yeah it was a nice act for her apologising on his mothers behalf that she did not want him as even though cruz did what he did and no apology from him would ever be enough it is still hard to hear that and not have a little sympathy and it would be nice for cruz to remain in contact with this woman as she is the cosest he will get to his birth mother
@johnshepard8556 Yıl önce
@@josephmiles7418 well i think its important for us as it shows our humanity fkr still treating him like a human being that he does not have
@josephmiles7418 Yıl önce
@@johnshepard8556 yeah i get that, but that treatment should only be for those capable of empathy and remorse. if there is no ability to re-enter society and be a functioning member; you should not get a roof over your head, meals, TV time, etc. on american tax dollars. prison/jail/etc should be rehabilitation for convicts capable of empathy and remorse. otherwise you do not deserve the same emotion, you deserve the same callousness you act with.
@girlscarf 2 aylar önce
This woman is really brave and badass to be as honest as she was on the stand. She could have kept details short and clipped but she very genuinely shared details of shameful, embarrassing, difficult moments of her life in court, in front of a jury, on TV for the whole world to see. She comes off as very earnest. Anyone with experience with addiction knows how tough the battle is, to survive, to stay clean. 25 years sober is a miracle. Shes a testament to how people can change.
@TheSugajazz Yıl önce
I admire her. It takes guts to be this open. People are quick to judge those who have lived with abuse or been exposed to drugs (all forms) it takes it’s toll on everyone around them. She was in constant fight for survival, she changed. Now she helps others. She was honest! What he did was unspeakable causing so much harm to everyone on the same note his start out wasn’t stellar. All those drugs in his system during development… I’m sure it had its affect on his brain. Doesn’t excuse it at all. My condolences to everyone. Truly heartbreaking 💔
@michelleh7168 Yıl önce
Hold your head high Carolyn, you were very brave and honest. You are not your past and despite the tragic circumstances, it’s great to see you healthy and engaging in life 🙏🏻❤️
@elisamastromarino7123 Yıl önce
Her blunt honesty makes her likeable. 25 years is impressive. I wish her a peaceful life now.
@thebush6077 Yıl önce
You can really tell she regrets her past and has changed for the better. Captivated by her story.
@Therealtarot1123 Yıl önce
Kudos to Carolyn Deakins, she got out of that vicious cycle and got herself a better life! So candid and super honest.
@nenej12 Yıl önce
She doesn’t look it at all! Her hair is Devine!
@melissagahn Yıl önce
This lady should be proud of herself. She did bad stuff, turned her life around, got it together and is an example for women of what you can do if you put your mind to it. Thank you for being a shining example of what a real woman is.
@aylen3322 Yıl önce
I hope she reads all these comments and feels the love for her and her journey. Real people. Hollywood couldn’t write this. So beautiful to feel this woman’s strength and heart.🙏✨🙏
@TBTrade Yıl önce
She is such a strong woman. I wish her continued luck on her journey to healing and living out the rest of her life in peace.
@user-tb7iz1vf7p Yıl önce
Finally, an honest witness. Makes me really sad just hearing her story and Cruz having to endure all that brain damage. Not justifying the murdering, but it is sad to see how sin brought about more sin.
@ms.louisiana4852 Yıl önce
@thebrunetteinroom7 Yıl önce
1 John 3:9 🎉
@Goawaypleasenow 4 aylar önce
As it always does!
@coreyyow Yıl önce
I love this women. God bless her. When you’ve overcome, it’s easier to speak about a dark past. I believe every word she spoke on the stand.
@cloutdaze Yıl önce
Wow what a life to have lived and to be clean. After all of that, to find a job and a purpose. Proof that your circumstances don’t have to define you, speaks volumes about the type of strength this woman had.
@CatDadJai Yıl önce
I have *so much* respect for this amazing woman. She lived an awful life and well and truly lost her way. However, she managed to not only find the strength to pick herself up and get back on track, she *stayed* on track, and now helps others turn their lives around, too. In my opinion, that's absolutely incredible and she should be so proud of herself!
@anatheistmyself Yıl önce
@Jay Absolutely so.! 🙂
@tracimyers9660 Yıl önce
I get that it’s the lawyers job but I felt bad for her when the other attorney questioned her. You could tell it upset her that he was pretty much saying she lies. I think she was being open and honest and sharing a lot of private and embarrassing things. And being as accurate as she could be after so many years of alcohol and drug abuse. I wanted to hear and understand everything she had to say but to me it doesn’t change anything. He did what he did and he has to pay for these horrific murders. It does give some insight but it changes nothing.
@misstwizzletoes9421 Yıl önce
There was no reason for the prosecuting attorney to examine her the way he did. She was providing credible testimony about things that happened 20 years ago and it was clear she was doing her best to be honest. He didn’t need to harp on details to try and make her sound like a liar-she had a tough life as is and deserves respect for coming forward to share here-but cross examiner was acting like she was the one on trial not the monster shooter.
@billyesxobar2247 Yıl önce
@@misstwizzletoes9421 exactly that shits disgusting, “just like ur unsure about the drugs being in ur front pocket right” Like bruh it takes a lot to go up there on television infront of thousands maybe millions and admit to that, she didn’t have to make herself be looked down upon like that, because most people hear drug prostitute and e immediately categorize her as garbage. She didn’t have to do that, nor is she justifying him she’s just giving her testimony to the best of her ability
@BhappyD Yıl önce
@@misstwizzletoes9421 Agreed! I’ve disliked how the prosecution has handled some of the witnesses in cross. Especially this lady and Cruz’s sister. These people aren’t getting up there because they want to, nor are they getting up there to defend anyone. They didn’t ask for any of this. To get up on the stand and testify in front of potentially millions of strangers about the most painful aspects of your past is extremely difficult and taxing. Nobody wants to share those kinds of things with the world on a public stage that is being recorded and will forever be on the internet associated with your name. I told very few people in my life that I grew up with an abusive father. Your conscious of the fact that people might look down on you for it, even if it was beyond your control (or in this lady’s case, even if she has changed for the better and has been sober for several decades). I can’t imagine having to go on the stand in a highly publicized trial with people all over the world watching and be expected to detail the painful parts of my own experience. I commend these people for being strong and courageous to share their story, shortcomings, poor choices and traumatic past. It’s disgusting how the prosecution has treated them with such a poor attitude and disrespect, as if they had anything to do with what Nikolas did. Normally for witnesses like this, who aren’t involved in any way with the crime and are just honestly sharing difficult details of their lives to provide background information, whichever side is doing the cross examination (whether prosecution or defense) typically treats them with a lighter/gentler approach and isn’t so harsh, which is how it should be. His demeanor and some of his questions are 100% unnecessary with this witness, and he’s just making the prosecution look bad, which does no favors with the jury.
@firstnamekaty8830 Yıl önce
I agree with what everybody here is saying. I was glued to her’s and Cruz’s sister’s story. I felt bad for both of them. I can’t imagine the stress this put on both of them.
@alexandramoyer8785 Yıl önce
@@firstnamekaty8830 ok feel bad for a murderer
@LaurieTafoya Yıl önce
Honestly I’m not okay with the prosecution attorney attacking her like he is. She has cleaned up her life, and now she is exposing her very sad past life in an effort to be sure we understand that the Parkland shooter is a victim of a horrible origin himself. Can you blame her?! She’s not at all saying he is innocent or absolved of guilt. She just wants the world to know what his origins are. Is it hard to hear? Absolutely. This exposes a recent era in WHITE middle America, as a very dangerous, very hopeless place to be. None of us wants to hear that. But we must. It should never change the atrocity of Cruz’ crime. But as a society, we need to hear this and FACE THIS: white America produced some very awful killers. Don’t @ me; I’m white too. From just north of this area in Florida. And I’m probably this woman’s age. But I have had a very very different life. Very very sobering indeed.
@tiredofitall9213 Yıl önce
I'm not commenting to disagree with you, but Cruz didn't grow up in this type of environment. He lived in a beautiful home and had a pretty good home life. I think the drugs and alcohol that she took while pregnant had a major impact on his brain development in utero. I have a cousin that was adopted and lived in a good home, my aunt & uncle gave him everything they could, but he couldn't get over the fact that he was adopted, He was always mad & resented them. He was a basketball star in HS, but got into drugs and fell into crime. He never killed anyone, but had robbed his parents of hundreds of thousands and beat his girlfriends...etc. He's been in & out of jail numerous times. He's doing supposedly OK now, but it took him decades to become a more productive member of society.
@tugboat2 Yıl önce
I think the Prosecutor restrained himself from a full attack which was wise for him to do. He came close to overstepping….
@ashlee0039 Yıl önce
@@tiredofitall9213 we all have a shitty family member like that. But they all have a past. They are orphans. We'll never understand the feeling of being discarded and strangers to your parents. Parebtal rejection in general none of us deal with properly. Even those of us that had parents in the home but were neglective, addicts, or abusive. Well that generates problems in our personality and other relationships everytime. So yours and anyone else's origins matter when there's an outburst especially one of Cruzs magnitude. He's human and has a brain, at the end of the day it's important to understand how the mind goes through the motions of murdering what 14/17 people? I mean the moment I heard it was over a girl and on valentines day I immediately assumed it was some mommy issues, rejected hormonal simp, problematic child type of situation, and that's because thats the only thing this COULD point to. but to have it confirmed though this story and very valid witness, it finally makes him seem like a plausible person/case. Before I couldn't see the full picture and it just was unfathomable. We all make assumptions but until they are confirmed it's just like wtf. How is this demon possible? We all have to try and understand it fully. Think about it, if someone could have recognized how bad he was suffering and he'd found a way to help him cope sooner this might not have happened 🤷‍♀️ same is true for your cousin really. Growing up in a clean or nice home doesn't mean everything's okay thays going on in a childs mind. And some of us just HAVE to experience and make certain mistakes until we are ready to face those demons and finally cope. Some never do, like probably Cruzs mom, while her past "acquaintance" Ms Carol is a compeltley different person and thriving these days.
@camillerodriguez5161 Yıl önce
He is so rude to so many witnesses. Even his own 🙄🙄🙄 I don’t think it’s intentional, I think maybe he’s just very passionate and he’s not aware how he could be portrayed.
@ptsdsucks9069 Yıl önce
Skin color is not relevant here. Bad people come from all walks of life.
@Carakimson Yıl önce
What a remarkable woman, honestly and such a character! I appreciate her telling it like it is, no filters of the past and the awful state they were both in. no holding back. The brutal truth of her lifestyle with Nicolas’ biological mother. I can absolutely tell that her past twenty five years of sobriety she has put the work and time in to see that she can save others from that same life of pain that she led. A perfect example of paying it forward to aid in others getting well in recovery. I can hear her speaking to groups at meetings Telling her riveting truth of rock bottom and how it led to where she is today standing strong and serving as such an inspiration to fellow addicts in the AA and NA . It’s kinda funny to watch the prosecutor
@Carakimson Yıl önce
Attempt to shred her credibility like as if she was massively lying about the entire nature of who Linda was as an addict and she seems to simply tell him what he wants To hear like yeah I could have gotten that wrong doesn’t make much of a difference now lol I wonder how difficult it may be for nick to hear about his mothers life . You see his head up and avid listening more engaged than he has been the entire Trial.
@gailwagner8115 Yıl önce
Wow, she has come a long ways, you can tell she really is a decent person or tries to be.. that is a lot to come back from! She even apologized for having to honestly say Brenda didn't care about that baby even though that baby is sitting in the courtroom. Powerful testimony. I don't know who or why they made the decision to bring that little girl back into Brenda's life into that apartment but I severely question that judgment call.. holy cow can you imagine dropping the 11 year old girl off in that apartment with a mattress no furniture.. to a drug addict. 👎💔
@auntistella Yıl önce
This took alot of courage for this woman to talk about what was probably the most embarrassing time of her life. God bless her in her endeavor to continue on the clean path
@gointothedogs4634 Yıl önce
Carolyn, your courage and integrity are awesome. Telling Nikolas the truth about his mother is heartbreaking. I worked on a boys ranch years ago where some of them had similar backgrounds and mothers, but you didn't dare ever say anything negative about those mothers, It is universal to want a mother who loves and protects us. Bless you!
@carolinehobson7365 Yıl önce
She did the best she could. Being on drugs destroys you. It tears up your brain. The lawyer was trying to do his lawyer stuff but she’s doing the best she can. She’s trying to remember what she can.
@benjialex2084 Yıl önce
I personally don’t understand why the cross exam tried so hard to impeach the witness when the witness was to the character of the mother. Kinda weird.
@manicobservations9605 Yıl önce
What a wonderful woman. I admire her honesty and strength.
@stephaniesmith5974 Yıl önce
This woman could save so many lives because she is a major success story! WOW what a STRONG HONEST FORTHCOMING person. How did she get herself clean for 25 years!! Just AMAZING WOMAN! What sheer guts. God Bless this woman.
@techninja4136 Yıl önce
I’ve met a couple of former prostitutes, that are also recovered addicts. They are all like this lady. Kind, honest, with a history of abuse that led them to that lifestyle. It’s amazing how they can overcome such a difficult life and become the wonderful women they were meant to be.
@LittleHippie420 Yıl önce
The more I hear from the people in his life the more I start to understand how he got where he is.
@wheelchairgeek Yıl önce
@@mcl7353 Actually, not many people experience far worse than what Nicolas Cruz did. Have you watched the trial? It is pretty bad. Also, I think the comments on this video mean 'starting with his birth' because I've watched a lot of videos on kids with fetal alcohol syndrome etc and basically it's like starting life with a serious handicap. No one is condoning what he did. But having understanding and sympathy is love. Clearly if there was more love in the world then less of this type of thing would happen anyway. His whole life was basically one big mess. And therapy didn't really work for him probably because they had underestimated what level of damage all this stuff his mum fed him through his umbilical cord and the effect it would have had on him. Poor lad. He didn't need to go and do what he did. But up till that point poor, poor lad. He had nothing at all.
@jackpotbetty2193 Yıl önce
It takes courage to tell this story in front of the world.
@shortcake5554 Yıl önce
This whole trial has been very emotional. I am so glad this woman won the fight with her addiction. I'm in recovery and I know how hard it is to stay clean. God bless her and God bless all the victims' families. I will also pray that Nikolas Cruz finds Jesus and opens his heart up to Him and he repents for everything he has done.
@carolinehobson7365 Yıl önce
Ms. Deacons, you don’t have to apologize for showing your emotions. You are brave and strong and you are an inspiration. God bless you!!!
@lvxleather Yıl önce
As messed up as it is what Nik did, I can't help but feel bad for what's become of his life. To grow up in a fvcked up childhood, being just some nuisance your mother didn't want and probably brain damaged from his mom using while pregnant. I think his mother has blood on her hands as well.
@veronicaperezmedia Yıl önce
He was adopted from birth and grew up in a well-to-do, loving home. Adoptive parents also took his brother in. Only affect would be drug and alcohol abuse in the womb...and perhaps the knowledge he was adopted. Lots of adopted kids that don't commit mass murder. Adoptive father died of a heart attack and adoptive mother died 3 months before he committed the massacre. By all accounts he had a great upbringing and put the adoptive mother through hell
@konczita82 Yıl önce
Really? What about Brenda? Do you know what she has been through when she was a child?! And do you have any idea what Brenda parents went through when they were children?! Or Brenda grandparents?!
@louniece1650 Yıl önce
@@veronicaperezmedia You're seriously missing a hella bunch of information, ma'am.
@veronicaperezmedia Yıl önce
@@louniece1650 yes there's a lot of information online. Not going to retell it here. However he didn't have a deprived or unloving childhood as people try to make out. Neurologically damaged from what his birth mother did while pregnant with him? No doubt.
@helives2209 Yıl önce
All we can do is pray for this young man. Also for all the families that lost loved ones! The past is now known. It clear his mind of why he is the way he is. Hope you find forgiveness but of course there's consequences of your behavior. Still praying for you and all those in the womb and the mother who is lost in substance abuse.❤️. Prayers for you to that took the witness stand! Never turn back to the filthy trash!
@laceynelson8659 11 aylar önce
This woman is so well spoken. She could write a book. I’d read every word. I’m glad she’s found her way. She’s so strong.
@soniagordon2799 Yıl önce
I always say, that there are no problem children, but problem parents. No wonder this child turned out like this. He was basically a born addict because of his mother. Imagine what it does to a baby being born an addict. The excrutiating pain of withdrawel. The development problems physically and mentally. My heart goes out to all these people and how they suffered and how their deeds culminated into a mass shooting. This woman testifying had the strength to fight her demons and stay alive.Very very sad.
@redmoon8217 Yıl önce
But those problem parents were once innocent children with problem parents and so it goes on. We can be empathic to a traumatised child but by the time he is 19 most people don't want to know and discribe them as an evil person. But then we don't have to look a the wider context of how these heinous things happen. Which is what we need to do if we want this to never happen to another child or parent. Our prisons are full of traumatised people who don't know how to emotionally regulate.
@susanbajjada2960 Yıl önce
So true💔 Love is the key to everything & he didn't even receive it from the person who carried him in her womb. No wonder. I'm not excusing his actions but when you hear what she was taking while pregnant I'm not surprised by his damaged brain, psychological etc. Tragic. Now there are countless victims🙏 Ps 37:10,11
@littleblossom7827 Yıl önce
But there are hundreds of thousands of children who are born in similar (and worse) situations, yet they don’t all grow up to be mass murderers.
@tinamcveigh4205 Yıl önce
@@redmoon8217 Absolutely Red Moon. The cycle of addiction goes on and on and on.
@misterscruffle Yıl önce
This woman is so fascinating to watch, you can see she has had a hard exterior but a big heart inside.
@WendyDahling3 Yıl önce
I respect this woman turning her life around. It’s sad to have her relive it. Many babies are born addicted to drugs and alcohol that doesn’t justify murdering innocent people. People have shitty lives. That’s life. This seems like such a waste of money. He did it, he said he did it. His victims didn’t get a right to live why should he?
@floridagirl9064 Yıl önce
i was born addicted to cocaine & i had a rough start to life but i live a great life raising my kids to the best of my ability without hurting people & without addictions of my own except cigarettes. cigarettes are terrible i know but it could be worse.
@basharbodhisattva8404 Yıl önce
The process of holding trials is always necessary regardless of the nature or circumstances of the crime in question or whatever the alleged perpetrator says about their involvement in it. Negating that process even once would legitimize emotional rushes to judgment and invite chaos and calamity on the whole society.
@calliecrider2475 Yıl önce
Amen to that
@lunarphoenixforyourface Yıl önce
@@floridagirl9064 I felt compelled to to tell you.... Nicorette lozenges were the only thing that worked for me. I quit 14 years ago, after 18 years of smoking. Good luck to you, sweetheart. ❤️
@emebent Yıl önce
It’s an unbelievably lucky set of circumstances that allowed her to survive addiction and allowed her mind to be strong enough to deliver this testimony. Otherwise any characterization of the biological mother’s life would be lost to time.
@jessestars2512 Yıl önce
Honestly - this is so tragic. This kid didn't have a chance. Those kids in school should be alive today. I feel that social media and news media have a lot to do with these tragedies. These troubled kids are so impressionable. If the internet disappeared today, I wouldn't care. Kids commit suicide because of social media. It's truly sick and evil.
@jadedbelle2797 Yıl önce
Why didn't he have a chance? He was raised with plentiful resources and provided for. He also had a "chance" to not become a mass murderer... I'm curious how you can rationalize his so called lack of chances?
@jadedbelle2797 Yıl önce
@@Psyminds My ignorance is staggering? That's quite a dramatic thing to say since I commented on only one particular aspect of this case. How could you possibly be able to judge my ignorance on this case as staggering from one comment? A bit out of proportion it seems. Sorry you're having a bad day.
@ayvonnebennings4449 Yıl önce
@@jadedbelle2797 I think they were just trying to say that empathy can go a long way.
@jadedbelle2797 Yıl önce
@@ayvonnebennings4449 I can definitely agree with that statement. Maybe much gets lost in translation when reading and not actually hearing expression in a voice. Thank you for the clarification. Take care!
@wheelchairgeek Yıl önce
Yeah. We aren't considering the impact of social media on children at all.
@chrismozer702 Yıl önce
This woman was brutally honest … seems like a nice woman who got her life together
@ashleybearden1906 Yıl önce
I applaud her for her honesty and changing her life around, as a former addict I know how hard it can be to break away from that life. But I truly believe she is the sole reason the jury decided on a life sentence over the death penalty.
@jeanetteweinstein9454 Yıl önce
I feel sorry for this lady. She had a shady past, she overcame it and it’s like she’s on trial during this
@timbredan3476 Yıl önce
I hope that her story is helpful to others.
@mickeyson1942 Yıl önce
I have so much respect for this woman regarding what she did in the past, she very honest about her past life.
@genenebruwer4809 Yıl önce
This woman is a classic! What a star, she could be so much in this life. She's so funny, what a character. Honest, straight and so witty. Just love her. God bless her soul.
@christierella Yıl önce
My heart breaks for this woman.
@RVincents Yıl önce
I feel badly for her. This was clearly very stressful I think it's amazing she tries to help other women. You can hear the pain in her voices..this is devastating to have to talk about in private let alone for the whole world to hear
@RVincents Yıl önce
@Gabriel De La Garza because I do. It's not easy to have talk about your worst mistakes for the world to hear. AA is contained and everyone is in the same boat. She is clearly uncomfortable. I would not want to do this... Relive my worst self.. And hers was really bad. She should be proud that she worked it out...
@autumnapollonia Yıl önce
If anyone was falling asleep in court she sure woke them up with her stories. God Bless that she survived all of this.
@crazydiamond4565 Yıl önce
Some people should NEVER have children! What a shame! So many heartbreaking stories because of Brenda! 🥺
@TheMohawk102 Yıl önce
makes me wonder what was Brenda's life like when she was just a baby . what type environment she was exposed to . maybe her parents where just like her . its like a chain and you just keep adding links .
@louniece1650 Yıl önce
@@TheMohawk102 It's definitely multi-generational.
@wearetheworld6962 Yıl önce
Listening to her testimony, I can sense there's a lot of guilt that she had kept a secret for a while and at some point she must've felt a little responsible for whatever happened with the boy because of the choices she/they've made in their past that lead him to that final day. Maybe in her mind, of they weren't subjected to all the drug abuse or alcohol, sexual abuse, or living that poor street lifestyle, maybe there wouldn't be any killings? Idk, maybe?
@NightMedicine Yıl önce
I can understand that. Many people would normally feel that. But at the end of the day only the individual makes the choice to commit murder. I know many people who grew up in horrible circumstances and they are some of the best people I’ve ever met. I guess what im saying is bad things happening to someone never justifies doing bad things to other.
@brandonayala4605 Yıl önce
@@NightMedicine literally nobody is making excuses for what he did though… nobody is justifying him. It was obviously his choice.. the defense literally stated themselves that there is no defense, and that he deserves whatever punishment is coming his way. There simply trying to avoid death penalty. That’s there job
@debikaip3699 Yıl önce
@@NightMedicine That is exactly right 👍💯 Nicholas made some bad choices. The abuse he suffered before he was born , I believe stays with the child. 🤷‍♀️ I saw a new born in a hospital nursery, come down off of drugs , it was the worst thing you could imagine seeing , I 😭😭😭while the mom of the new born was shooting up in the bathroom of the hospital. 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 That baby suffered, then & I’m sure still suffers the effects today. Bad choices were made long before Nicholas was born & Nicholas made a very bad choice, for what ever reason he killed all these young adults . It was wrong. 💔😢💔😢💔😢💔😢
@roxannemoser Yıl önce
@@debikaip3699 it's heart shattering all around. This shouldn't be happening. Doctors should've kept tabs on Nickolas growing up and he should've been in therapy as a child.
@leannabedore Yıl önce
She wanted to say so much more, and probably said more than she was suppose to (due to strictly sticking to the answer on hand) someone should interview her😊 she wants to be heard, and I'm sure people would love to hear more of her.
@cece8095 Yıl önce
I cannot imagine what the parents are thinking. For the defense to bring this poor woman into this to testify is just disgusting. Im not sure why she agreed to even do this. Im not even sure why we are having to go to court over this. And the fact that the parents have to sit through any of this is appalling. What on earth was the defense team trying gain from this? Were they trying to throw in the “insanity card” for him so his sentence would be lighter? Like what the hell.
@enjoyingmyvodka1013 Yıl önce
The guy had it bad since before he was born. He’s all messed up! It’s no excuse for what he did but he truly went through so much! RIP to all the victims
@camillerodriguez5161 Yıl önce
It proves that mental illness is a very big contributing factor when crimes happen IMO.
@Interestingname Yıl önce
It shows exactly how easy it is to go down a bad road and then allow that trauma to trickle down. Then add in fetal alcohol syndrome and mental illness. My mom was similar to Brenda in a sense. My father raised my from age 4 but allowed visits. I forgave her in time and have done my best to go in the opposite direction. I’m proud of where I am but have I had similarities ABSOLUTELY
@beautifiedpro8712 Yıl önce
@@camillerodriguez5161 I always try to tell people that but people will always try to say I’m wrong !
@camillerodriguez5161 Yıl önce
@@beautifiedpro8712 I think most people won’t understand until they’ve lived with mental illness or have seen it in their daily life. The mind is a powerful thing and it can go either way, if left untreated things can get very dark for some people.
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